Yesterday as I was about to leave to embark on a four-plus hour drive for an appointment for work, I was dismayed to see my laptop lying on the floor with the keyboard detached and laying at an awkward angle. Our puppy, Millie – in all her usual gusto – had likely knocked it off the arm of my chair as she bounced around the house. I guess I should have known better and left it in a more secure spot, so I won’t blame the dog. This time.
I snapped the keyboard back in place and to my dismay, there were several keys on the left side that did not work anymore. I did not have time to dive into it to see if it was an easy fix, nor the time to stop to look at another laptop on the way to my appointment (much less the funds in the budget to get one). So I hit the road with my tablet in its place in hopes that it would suffice for what I needed. Well, it didn’t. And the battery died right when I needed it most. Ugh. Fortunately, I had done enough preparation to get what we needed done.
I had just had my desktop computer go up in smoke the week before and all the way home I knew I was now without any computer at all and we would have to have an emergency budget meeting to make room for a computer. It is something I have to have for work.
This morning I was awakened much earlier than normal and could not go back to sleep. I got up and headed out to the office for my quiet time and prayer. As I was wrapping up, my mind turned back to my computer problem, and I that’s when I heard it.
“It” seems so much harder to hear some days. We get so busy with work, family, and even church activities, that sometimes we miss hearing “it.” And if we would just slow down and get quiet, we can hear “it” a lot more often and a lot more clearly.
You probably already know that the “it” I am talking of is the still, small voice of God. I believe that part of my reason for staying up so late last night was that I was worried – I was thinking of what I was going to do to get a laptop. Should I sell my Galaxy tablet? I really need a laptop more than a tablet for work and my tablet failed me yesterday. Should I fix the cracked screen on the iPad and sell it? I mean I fixed so many of those when I was out of work tending to Caleb full time.
I was so busy trying to solve the problem and running through so many scenarios that I missed it. I was so busy thinking of the paperwork that had to be done this morning that I missed it. I was so consumed with thoughts of conflicts and decisions that must be dealt with over the next few days, and other issues of life that I let get in the way, that I missed IT.
Well, back to this morning. This time I did hear it. It wasn’t audible. It was just something deep inside that I sensed telling me to do something – a peaceful urging. I followed exactly what I felt it prompting me to do.
I gently pried the keyboard back off and disconnected the connector. I felt that was the issue. Once I had it apart, I could not get it back into the connector. When I sensed frustration coming on, I simply stopped. I thanked God and quoted a verse from Proverbs 20:27 that says, “the spirit of man is the candle of the Lord.” He had led me this far – I needed to know what to do next. Immediately it occurred to me that some of those computer connectors snap apart. I took a small tool and gently pried, and it snapped open!
I pushed the ribbon connector back into place and pushed it back closed. I then snapped the keyboard back into place and I just typed this entire blog entry on my computer with the keyboard working perfectly fine!
I’m so glad that God loves me even in my ignorance and loves me enough to gently guide me back when I get distracted. If we (and I mean ME – I need to hear it as much as anyone) would take more time to still ourselves and get alone with God, He will speak to us. If we want to hear what He has to say, we need to intentionally bring down the noise level in our lives and listen. There are a thousand distractions out there shouting at us. But God doesn’t shout. He whispers.
The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord,
And He delights in his way. -Psalms 37:23